Happiness Is Just A Step Away.

Come with me through my highs and my lows. My euphoric nights and my late night withdrawals. Heroin. Punk. Worthless.

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Self destruct mode.

"I feel like theres two types of people in this world. The ones that get over their grief and move on, and the ones that descend into some sort of endless misery."
Criminal Minds (Alchemy)

(Source: sumlesbian)

"The only real answer is that you just keep on going. You take one breath, then another, then another. Somehow, an hour passes. Then a day, then a week. Somehow, you learn to take an hour at a time instead of just a breath. Somehow, you survive when you don’t think survival is possible."
RaeAnne Fredrickson (via theprimroseproject)
"The sun still shines
Without you here
But it burns my skin
And leaves me
Shivering."

Memories emerge without warning and I am unable to protect myself from their impact.

Got out of jail today. Went in on probation violation for drinking. I can’t seem to stop. The only comfort I find is at the bottom of a bottle. I am the loneliest I’ve ever been in my entire life. I’m five months clear off heroin, but I’m drinking like a fish. Its the only thing lately that’s drowning out my sorrows. I drink till I black out and it’s the only thing that makes me forget. 
Its coming up on a year since you’ve been gone and it’s finally hitting me. The grief is unbearable. 
Its like a year is the time that the brain realizes that someone is gone for good. It hurts so bad that not a single tear will fall. The silence kills me. Its like my heart has gone cold without you. 
I can’t wait to be with you again.
I’m back!!  Went to jail for a month. I almost have 90 days clean and sober. I have a job. It’s fucking crazy to think about.

Finally got my own place. Still playing with that golden nectar, but what do I have to lose?

Everything that kills me makes me feel alive.

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